01 May 2001
I just finished reading the two poems and needed to let you
know how profoundly I was touched by the pathos and
pain of the individual/s who wrote them. To my knowledge as
of yet, I have never been the victim of child abuse from
there was an incident with some neighborhood boys when
a little girl, and fortunately it was just one isolated
incident and my mom was very quick to deal with the culprits
their parents. Keep fighting, this will be revealed
and will be taken care of. I won't say in God's time, because
that would be like a slap in the face to the many victims,
the so called concerned elders voice those words so
times. My ex husband was an elder and they had a situation
abuse in our congregation and to my knowledge, the
brother basically denied it ever happened (it was years before)
was kept as an elder in good standing in our congregation.
The daughter was told the same things, its your word
against his, and you have to leave it in Jehovah's hands.
neither my husband nor I were at all comfortable with that
ex tried to pursue it further but was told by the other
to leave it alone. The only reason I knew about it
was because the sister confided in me one day. My ex was one
of the better
elders. He kept things confidential and I never asked.
01 May 2001
Bill, it is very painful to even remember what happened to
me at the hands of Watchtower men, let alone reveal
it to anyone. I know that there are other children out there
what I went through and that they are, likewise, terrified
into silence. The silence must be broken so that they
can be protected and helped to escape their clutches.
There is an actual ring of pedophiles in this organization who
are grooming children for sex. And people need to know about
it. Satanism is involved. They use Watchtower doctrine and policy
along with threats to terrorize their helpless little victims
The Society has tried to play down the existence of satanists
in this organization, however, there are too many victims to
effectively squelch it. As an adult I have met quite a few who
also recall having been abused by Jehovah's Witnesses who were
also practicing satanism. Some of these ARE elders in various
positions in the organization.
Guy Pierce, now of the Governing Body, and another elder personally
told me several years ago while he was a Circuit Overseer that
the Society had investigated the accusations of satanism and
found them to not be true. At the time it was very disconcerting
to me to hear that because it made the whole picture I was finally
getting defunct. And, I was forced to drop it. I was trying to
warn people. Where could I go with what I was beginning to remember
if the Society had already said it wasn't so? It makes me cry.
Recently, I was driving to an appointment with an attorney and
as I was praying and asking Jehovah what I should say to him,
I was shocked when it came to my mind that if the Society applied
the same "two witnesses" rule, which they use for determining
if a child was truly molested and a perp is guilty, to their
investigations into the accusations of satanism and Satanic Ritual
Abuse with a network of satanists in this organization which
stretches across the country, then it is no wonder that they
came up with "nothing. "
As a result, the questions beg to be asked, "Who did the
investigations in the first place?" "Is it really Jehovah's
will for all of this silence? Or someone else's?" "What
is TRULY being protected?" And, in spite of the fact that
there are many good people in this organization who don't have
a clue about what is going on, the question needs to be addressed, "Is
the Watchtower Society really a cover for some other clandestine
movement?" "Why are so many good people being hurt
in this organization, with no justice, whatsoever, forthcoming. . . all
of them being told, myself included, to "wait on Jehovah?" "Why
does Watchtower policy protect the bad guy? Not the victim?"
I will write more when I can. Thank you.
01 May 2001
Thank you for all you have done for the abused who have had
no one, until now, to hear their cries.
I wish you and your family peace, blessings, and a future of
happiness as well as the deep contentment of knowing that you
have done something very noble and valiant with your life. You
did not look away and cover over what others did. You have done
the right thing for the children, never doubt that.
I know that this work that you've done has come with considerable
personal cost to you and your family. Your courage is an example
to us all, thank you for all you have done, and will yet do.
Love, Lily Paige "Esmeralda" http://WTSurvivors. homestead. com/index. html
04 May 2001
This is a wonderful site. I hope the people who need it most
05 May 2001
HI, I am outraged that this type of thing is going on in an
organization that calls itself the "truth". I am
not now nor have I ever been a Jehovah's witness, but I am
married to one, if only he would look at this website, I believe
he would be just as sickened as I am. I commend all that have
turned in and are trying to right this despicable wrong. From
my understanding, Dateline NBC is doing a special investigative
report on these incidents, I for one, cannot wait until it
airs so that the public can be informed on the real "truth" inside
God's blessings to you all,
Date: 06 May 2001
Silentlambs, go on!! My best wishes for you. It is necessary
to speak the truth out and you are doing a fine work.
I am writing from Dominican Republic, where we had no idea
these things happening into the org. Thanks for opening
Date: 06 May 2001
i believe you!As a former JW who left on my own accord and
for that was disfellowshipped,i am aware of the hypocrisy
and mind numbing teachings of this religion.
08 May 2001
I think what you are doing is incredibly courageous, and I
know Jehovah looks down very kindly on what you are doing.
I wish more of the "shepherds" in the organization
had your empathy - we would then have no haven for these "wolves".
Keep up the good work!
11 May 2001
As a lifelong, fourth generation Jehovah's Witness, I have
no direct, personal knowledge of any incident of child molestation
with the organization. However, I personally have been given
warnings on two separate occasions by two different elders.
In one instance, my wife's brother, an elder who had sat on
many judicial committees and appeals committees, advised my
wife and me never to trust ANYONE, even a witness in good standing
or a witness family member, to EVER be alone with either of
our two small children. On another occasion, my brother, who
is an elder, learned that our teenage daughter was spending
the night with a witness friend of hers whose grandparents
lived in the same home. He informed my wife and me that the
friend's grandfather, himself a longtime elder, was a pedophile.
If not for the previous advice and the fact that this comment
came from my own fleshly brother whom I trust completely, I
would have been doubtful of the information. File this entry
under "For What It's Worth," please. <anderson_mccrew@hotmail. com>
14 May 2001
Silentlambs, Thank you a million times for such a wonderful & informative
site!! I pray for you and your family and may many blessing
abound you and yours. My parents are still active and I hope
and pray that Dateline gives them a wake-up call. I left over
20 years ago. . . . . Thank God!! Peace & Blessings, Nico
15 May 2001
how can you stay in this sick depraved organization of freaks
paedophiles and social misfits, it is an evil,stale,
mentally damaging organization,and you call the world wicked?
wrecked my family. Satan's work.
15 May 2001
Bill, the work you are doing is a blessing, and all that you
have done to expose the deceitfulness of the Watchtower is
proving that they are dirtier than the religions they so ardently
speak out against in their literature. I have heard some "witness" complain
about "witness bashing". I am nauseated by this term
that they love to use. Yet they freely bash every religion,
and everyone else who does not agree with them. And they do
it hurtfully. I hope they reap the consequences of their actions.
What goes around comes around and the Society is due for what
comes around to them. Not only have you been an encouragement
and an inspiration to me and every other survivor touched by
the pain of sexual abuse being denied within this religious
community, but you are also hopefully giving others the confidence
to come forward, especially other elders who sincerely are
pained by what the wicked men in the Watchtower are directing
them to do in regards to protecting criminals. I was disgusted
and nauseated when I read the letter from the Watchtower Dec.
1992 directing the elders to cover for a murderer. From the
personal experience I went through with my family in regards
to Sexual Abuse being hidden by elders who were family members,
I know this is accurate and worth making known. I honestly
feel that in behalf of the victims of the ones who were murdered,
who are very likely still in pain over the unsolved mystery
of their loved ones murderer, the FBI should know of this.
How dare the Watchtower Elders think they are above the law.
How dare these men who are nothing more that part time volunteers
at a kingdom hall make decisions of life over other human beings.
How utterly disgusting. I hope this letter is made public.
16 May 2001
I was shocked and horrified to read of the Society's view towards
child molestation. I was raised a Jehovah's Witness, but left
the congregation when I was fifteen. Although my story differs
somewhat, it is yet another example of how the congregation's
elders have abused their power. My sister was raped when she
was twenty-four by a man she did not know. The man had come
along with my sister's best-friend and her husband to try to
find employment in our city. My sister was not comfortable
with this man staying at her apartment as he was worldly and
she did not know him. She let him stay to watch a movie and
then he was going to go stay at a hotel. She felt safe doing
this because she was not going to be left alone with him as
her best-friend and husband would be there. She also did not
want to convey an unfriendly attitude towards him. He had shown
some interest in the truth and she did not want to portray
the congregation as unsympathetic to a potential study who
had traveled quite a distance. Unfortunately, her best-friend
and husband decided to go to bed before the movie ended, but
my sister didn't think much of it because the movie was almost
done. After he was sure everyone in the apartment had gone
to sleep he decided to make his move. My sister spurned his
advances emphatically and told him to leave. That's when he
decided he was going to have her whether she liked it or not.
In other words, he raped her. After it happened, my sister
told my father who told her that she must tell the elders about
what happened. He thought that they may be able to provide
her with spiritual counseling to help her through the aftermath
instead of her seeking outside worldly professional help. To
make a long story short, they disfellowshipped her. Their reason
was that she was guilty of "loose conduct that lead to
fornication. " They said she should have never had him
in her home in first place and then this wouldn't have happened.
They also said that because she only told him "NO!" repeatedly
and did not scream that she was not emphatic enough and he
must have thought she was enjoying it. I lost all faith and
respect for the truth the day she was disfellowshipped. I will
never step foot in another kingdom hall.
I think what you are doing with this website is very courageous
of you. I can only imagine how it felt to finally realize how
many young children were hurt because of the society's egotistical
beliefs. It's bad enough when children are victimized in the
first place, but to then have it happen again at the hands of
people who claim to be compassionate and caring is beyond low.
Please keep up your efforts, if you can tip off just one parent
before it happens to their child you've accomplished your goal.
I will leave my e-mail address with you and if there is anything
I can do to help, I would be honored to try. I know there is
no "heaven" but if there were I'm sure God would have
already reserved you your spot. Take care and best of luck in
Date: 18 May 2001
Someone said they're married to a JW and just wish the person
would read this website. The thing to do I have found
is to summarize the main points of the information along
sources in a brief letter which you then mail to
Being human they will read it 95% of the time even
though the Watchtower heads have forbidden it countless
times. If you
verbally try to get the person to look at such information
they will usually resist because they are under threat
of disfellowshipment etc. But the letter in the mail
24 May 2001
I would like to say that this is a great place to let people
know what is going on in Jehovah's Witnesses!!!! My
email address is loveandkisses_99@hotmail. com
26 May 2001
The WT Letter box says see the Letter/s but provides no link.
It had the letter on the Watchtower Society's telling
Florida elders to not tell police (or unsuspecting rank-and-file)
a wanted fugitive for murder was attending their hall
as a baptized
Jehovah's Witness but now the letter's not there. Please
27 May 2001
Hi SilentLambs, I would like to humbly suggest that instead
of using the term "Victims" that you change it to "Survivors",
or "Victim-Survivors", because, really that is what
we all are. We have survived in spite of Watchtower, and your
site proves it. A-Roar-er
27 May 2001
Although I left the organization many years ago. I had an experience
that I would like to relate. Approximately twenty
years ago, when I was part of the organization, I was pregnant,
one of daughters of one our elders baby sit my six
old daughter while my husband and I went to lamaze classes.
came to learn that the daughter of the elder was experimenting
my daughter in a sexual manner. I brought this to
the attention of the elders. To this day I am still amazed
the events and made it my fault. They even went as
far as I should somehow try to make up with the wife the
mother of the girl who had babysat my daughter. They
made it my daughter (who was six at the time) and my fault.
add my husband was an unbeliever and they also faulted
me for telling him what had transpired.
28 May 2001
How about having a downloadable flyer on your site that could
be posted in public places ALL OVER THE COUNTRY letting
people know who you are, what's happening, how they can
and what we can do to help?
28 May 2001
Maybe now, after all these years,looks as though something is
being done for the silent lambs. It has been so long overdue.
Our South Florida support group is anxious to help. Please
let us know how best we can do this. We were JW*s from 1931
till December 1981. . . second and third generation until our Lord
and Savior rescued us. We were in St. Louis in 1941 as children. . . now
we have grand children. . . wonder sometimes what life would have
been like had we listened to the judge and not married. We
have two sons and a daughter OUT and IN CHRIST. We thank God
they were never molested physically. Again, tell us what we
can do to help. Our EMail is ruffinit6@juno. com. . . . we are Ray & Marilyn
30 May 2001
NBoyd62220@aol. com I live in the Tri-Cities of WA state. There
are over 100 registered sex offenders that are dumped here
by the state. The top 10 worst sex offenders live here. I have
twin daughters, so you can bet we are concerned about this
problem. I now have new information about some of the "churches" here
thanks to this wonderful site! I think it would be worthwhile
to do some investigating of this problem right here because
we are such a small community. I can not understand why we
have been chosen to be the dumping ground for these sick people,
some who are 3 time losers!
31 May 2001
Thank you so much for this article. I found it shocking. I
must inform you that the Catholic Church has priests
who also never marry; however they are well aware of the
society. Women have active roles in the Church and
many are Eucharist Ministers. Since there is a shortage of men
entering the priesthood, the future of the Catholic Church
well be altered to include married men as well as women.
May the peace of the Lord be with you, Margo Conklin,